Title : I’m not a girl, not yet a man
Fandom : NEWS & JE (a bit of V6 in this fic)
Pairing : TegoPi (finally!)
Rating : PG-13
Summary : Yamapi was a guest on Gakkou e Ikkou and surprised to see Tegoshi was also on the show, cross-dressing!
A/N : First time writing non-AU BL, I hope it’s not too OOC ^^;; un-beta-ed, please excuse any typos, grammar bugs and simple English that I used.
Yamapi gulped hard, in 30 seconds he would make a guest appearance in Gakkou e Ikkou. A long running variety show hosted by his senpai V6. He always felt nervous dealing with his senpai, especially the ones that he didn’t have much connection with. None of V6 members considered close with him, but it was work and being a professional, the show must go on. It’s been a while since he made any appearance in that show. The last one was like 3 years ago when he promoted his drama “Dragon Zakura” with Abe Hiroshi-san and Hasegawa Kyoko-san.
He wasn’t sure himself why he got invited to this show again, after all he didn’t have anything to promote. “Summer Time” has been released almost a month ago. And his upcoming summer drama with Aragaki Yui and Toda Erika was on Fuji TV not TBS. He had no reason to be there, but his manager said it’s good to make an appearance for once in a while since he got no regular TV show, unlike Ryo, Koyama and Tegoshi. Well, at least Massu has a weekly radio show and Shige has drama with Ueto Aya. He got nothing except his daily j-web entries since the filming of “Code Blue” hasn’t started yet.
“Yamashita-san, please stand by!” instructed an AD bringing him back to reality. He let out a long sigh and stood by the door behind the studio.
“In three, two, one!” whispered the AD as a sign for him to enter the studio.
He walked inside the studio and welcomed by a hundred screaming high school l girls, he just learnt he was going to make a guest appearance in a segment called “Josou Paradise”, a segment where they cross-dressed high school boys to pretty girls. He let out a fake smile and waved to the girls only to receive another “KYAAA!” from them.
“And today’s guest is our popular kohai Yamashita Tomohisa!” introduced Sakamoto Masayuki, the leader of V6.
“Lucky girls ne? We have Yamapi today.” continued Miyake Ken with a grin pasted on his forever 17 years old face.
“Doumo, Yamapi desu!” bowed Yamapi and of course made the studio filled with screaming girls once again.
“It’s been a while ne Yamapi? When was the last time you made it here?” asked Sakamoto.
“Around 3 years ago I guess.” replied Yamapi politely.
“Well, let’s the show begin. Do you know “Josou Paradise’?”
“I heard a lot about it, I watched the episode with Ninomiya-kun on it.” which was a lie, he never watched the show, his manager told him everything about the segment just 30 minutes ago.
“Hontou? Well, can’t wait to see you kiss one of our Josou then.” teased Miyake.
“Ehhhh?? Kissu???” shocked Yamapi. He didn’t see how Nino gave an ultimate fan-service by kissing one of Josou boy thru a piece of glass, so they didn’t directly kiss as there was glass between them, but still the audiences in the studio (also at home) went crazy to see it.
“You don’t really watch our show, do you?” retorted Sakamoto twitching his eyes, pretending to be mad.
“Sumimasen.” laughed Yamapi. He reminded himself to start recording and watching senpai’s TV show, just in case, so he wouldn’t trap in embarrassment anymore.
“Let’s start with the first Josou, shall we?” interrupted Miyake, saving Yamapi from Sakamoto’s glare. He started reading little info about the first Josou, made comment here and there, and finally Sakamoto said the magic words that the audiences were waiting for.
“CURTAIN OPEN!”
The pink curtain at the center of the studio was lifted and showed the Josou’s legs, up to his body and finally his face. Everyone in the studio gasped to see a beautiful figure sitting in front of them. None would expect it was actually a high school boy, not a girl.
“Uwaaa!! Is she really a boy?” surprised Yamapi. It was his first time to see that segment after all.
“You can touch his boobs if you don’t believe.” teased Miyake playfully.
“Ehhh? No no no, it’s ok!” panicked Yamapi, a pink blush crept over his face.
“Miyamoto-kun, say something!” ordered Sakamoto to the cross-dressed boy.
“Doumo, Miyamoto Takumi desu.” said the boy with his bass voice. Everyone in the studio laughed. It’s amazing how the make-up artist managed to make the boy into pretty girl with just a touch of make-up, wig and dress.
Later they explained the points of the make-up, on how to hide any masculine features, and how to change it into girlish look. They also showed his photo as ordinary boy which received a lot of “kawaii” comments from the audiences. Usually the boys picked for the segment were so called “bishounen” or pretty boys. Sakamoto asked Miyamoto-kun to stand up and again he received warm applauses from the audiences, he almost looked like a model with his tall and slim figure. Then they ended his appearances by closing back the curtain.
***
They showed like 3 other cross-dressed boys which also received same shocking reaction from everyone in the studio. Yamapi was excited and finally enjoyed the amusing show. Yamapi got to act as Kenzo proposing Rei in ProDai with one of the Josou, but he was lucky Sakamoto didn’t order him to kiss anyone of them. Or so he thought.
“So Yamapi, you are in NEWS right?”
“Yes.”
“Who do you think will make a pretty Josou in NEWS?”
“Definitely not Shige!” Everyone laughed.
“Oh the ojisan one?” commented Sakamoto.
“Haha, yes.”
“Then who?” asked Miyake with interest.
“Uhm, not Ryo … not Koyama … Massu is kawaii, but his body is too muscular for Josou right?” asked Yamapi to the audiences and received a loud “HAI~IIIIII!”
“Tegoshi then.” Yamapi finally decided.
“Tegoshi huh?” confirmed Miyake with a smirk.
“Err, I think so.”
“Well, we will see if the audiences agree with you or not. CURTAIN OPEN!!”
“EEHHHH?”
Before Yamapi could say anything more, the curtain was lifted up for the 5th time and revealing the prettiest Josou of the day, Tegoshi Yuya of NEWS! He was sitting in girly way and smiling brightly. He wore a cute cocktail white dress, a long brown wig and high heel white sandals. The whole studio went crazy and praised him with kawaii or kirei remarks.
Yamapi was shocked obviously. His mouth formed a big “O” when he saw Tegoshi as a girl for the first time. He could feel his heart beat faster than usual, doki-doki. He always thought Tegoshi has girlish features but never imagined him cross-dressing at all. He looked like an angel with that white dress. Yamapi cleared his throat.
“Uwaa Tegoshi-kun, you are so pretty!” stunned Sakamoto. He had seen a lot of pretty Josou, but he thought Tegoshi was the prettiest one by far.
“Arigatou, Sakamoto-san.” replied Tegoshi shyly, somehow his voice sounded more high-pitch than ever. He seemed to enjoy the atmosphere a lot. Cross-dressing wasn’t a new thing for Tegoshi. His mother often made him wearing dresses when he was small. He even had a long hair during elementary school. A lot of people had mistaken him for a girl.
“So how you feel wearing girl stuff?” asked Miyake curiously, he once participated in “Josou Paradise” and he hated it.
“Tanoshikatta! Hontou ni omoshiroi! It’s really amazing how girls can walk freely with these high heels, and how they spend hours with make-up everyday. I’m very impressed. I will appreciate their effort to look pretty from now on.” answered Tegoshi diplomatically and received warm responses from the audiences. He surely knew how to win everyone’s hearts.
“Ne Yamapi, what do you think of your fellow member here in “Josou Paradise”?” asked Sakamoto finally turned his head away from Tegoshi to Yamapi.
“Eh? Kirei desu ne.” answered Yamapi uncertainly, he wasn’t really sure how to act. All he knew, he couldn’t stop starring at Tegoshi.
“Tegoshi-kun, can you please stand up?” requested Miyake.
And so Tegoshi stood up from the famous “Josou” chair. Another “UWAAA!” was heard all over the studio. His slim figure covered with cocktail dress really made many girls jealous for sure. The light eye shadow and mascara made his brown eyes looked bigger and beautiful, the soft blush-on made his face structure slimmer and the pink lipstick made his kissable lips more inviting than ever. Everyone still couldn’t believe the pretty figure in front of them was a boy.
“Yamapi, stand beside Tegoshi.” instructed Sakamoto pointing to Yamapi. Of course Yamapi had no choice but to obey his senpai’s order.
“Wow, perfect couple!” shouted Miyake. Both Yamapi and Tegoshi couldn’t help but blush. With Tegoshi wearing high heels, his height didn’t differ much with Yamapi, they looked like a couple indeed. Later the girls chanted, “Kissu! Kissu! Kissu!”
“EEHHH?!”
“Well, we can’t disappoint our dearest audiences, ne? Bring the glass in!” ordered Sakamoto to a staff. He received a piece of glass immediately and passed it to Yamapi who was still oblivious.
“Easy yo, just kiss him thru the glass.” said Miyake trying to reassure Yamapi then turned his head to Tegoshi, “Tegoshi, ii desu ka?”
“Ii desu, daijoubu!” answered Tegoshi confidently. How Yamapi wished Tegoshi said no instead. It would be awkward, very awkward. It wasn’t his first time kissing Tegoshi, during Myojo photoshoot for 2006/2007 NEWS School Calendar he had to kiss Tegoshi’s cheek. But back then only Okamoto-senpai the photographer and few other people witnessed it.
“Well, let the kiss begin.” announced Sakamoto then placing his index finger to his lips so the audiences would stop chanting and be quiet for a while. Surprisingly the studio went totally silent. Everyone held their breaths away, waiting impatiently for the rabu-rabu action between two hottest idols in Japan.
Yamapi took a deep breath, positioning himself in front of Tegoshi. His eyes met Tegoshi’s. He seemed relax, unlike nervous Yamapi. Tegoshi slowly closed his eyes, forming his lips to kiss position. Yamapi gulped, “Damn, this is serious! Relax Tomohisa, think this as fan-service!”
He kept repeating “fan-service” word in his mind, then placing the glass between them and kissed Tegoshi thru it. The whole studio suddenly went wild, clapping their hands, and cheering them with big enthusiasm. After few seconds, Yamapi released the “kiss” and his face was already flushed in red tomato. Tegoshi covered his face shyly, although he was happy to finally get a “kiss” on the lips from his respected idol, still having it in public was somehow mortified.
“Arigatou, Yamapi! Arigatou Tegoshi! Both of you are awesome! Thank you for participating in “Josou Paradise”! See you all next time!” finally Sakamoto ended the show. Yamapi was glad the show was over. He was about to get back to the dressing room once he felt a hand stopped him. It was Tegoshi. Yamapi gave him a question look.
“Nani yo, Tegoshi?”
“Can I have a lift, Yamashita-kun?”
“Eh nande?”
“I want to keep this whole things, I want to show this to my mother, she must be very pleased. But it’s impossible for me to take train with this outfit, right?”
“Sure!” Yamapi didn’t know why he responded rather quickly.
“YATTA! Matte ne, I have to take pictures with other Josou and the staff first. I will be right back in 5 minutes.”
***
Yamapi already waited for 30 minutes, he almost lost his patience. He always hated waiting. His manager already left after he informed him about taking Tegoshi home. He flipped a random magazine out of boredom. And finally Tegoshi opened the door.
“Gomen ne, it took longer than I expected.” explained Tegoshi under his breath, he was just running, obviously. Yamapi’s anger was suddenly disappeared. After all, it’s Tegoshi he was dealing with, he could never be angry with him, especially when he put on his best puppy eyes like that.
“Never mind, jya ikkou yo!”
“Un!”
Tegoshi’s house was a bit far away, it’s situated outside Tokyo city, so Yamapi decided to have dinner first. Tegoshi was in heaven. He finally got a chance to have dinner with Yamapi, just the two of them! Yamapi took him to his favorite Yakiniku restaurant. They spent the nice evening together, talking about work and nothing in particular. With Tegoshi still cross-dressing, they seemed like a couple on a date indeed.
In the middle of their conversation, Tegoshi received a mail. He read it immediately and frowned.
“Nande, Tegoshi?”
“My mother and grandmother aren’t home! They suddenly decided to go to onsen in Hakone and will only come back tomorrow evening.”
“Ahh too bad, you can’t show them the cross-dressing.”
“How dare they go without telling me, I want to go too!” pouted Tegoshi.
Yamapi chuckled for Tegoshi’s childish act, but he thought it was cute especially with Tegoshi still wearing those girl things like that.
“Ne, Yamashita-kun, can I stay at your place tonight?”
“Ehhh?”
“My father is on business trip so nobody at home, I hate being alone.”
“Sure.” Yamapi still didn’t know why he agreed so suddenly.
***
Yamapi opened his posh apartment’s door and let Tegoshi walked inside first. He made sure no paparazzi following them, even if Tegoshi was his band mate he still couldn’t risk both of them to appear in Josei Seven or Friday tabloids next morning.
“Uwaaa sugoii!! Your apartment is very nice, Yamashita-kun!” praised Tegoshi after he wandered around the living room.
“Thanks. What do you want for drink?”
“Anything, I’m very thirsty.”
“Ok, what a sec.” Yamapi walked to the fridge and apparently he didn’t stock anything else but beer on it. He reminded himself to go shopping for groceries tomorrow.
“Tegoshi, there’s only beer! Is it ok?”
“Ok desu! I’m already 20 yo!”
Yamapi smiled, sure Tegoshi already reached the legal age to drink, no need to worry. He brought a pack of beers on his hand and grabbed potato chips. Tegoshi said he wanted to watch some DVD before going to sleep. He passed a can of beer to Tegoshi and received gladly by the latter.
“What do you want to see?”
“Anything but horror.”
“We have the same taste then. How about “Elizabeth’s Town”? It’s one of my fave movie.”
“Alright.”
Yamapi still didn’t know why he suggested a romantic movie. He started to wonder why he behaved so differently toward Tegoshi that day. He stole a glance at a figure next to him, Tegoshi still wearing those girly dress, make-up and wig, somehow it turned him on. He shook his head in denial.
“Dame Tomohisa, Tegoshi is a boy!”
Yamapi decided to concentrate on the movie. He didn’t leave his eyes from the TV, trying to avoid Tegoshi. Meanwhile Tegoshi began to feel hot, even if he loved wearing those dress and wig, he still felt uncomfortable.
“Yamashita-kun … “ called Tegoshi all the sudden.
“Hai?”
“Can you please open the zipper on my dress, it’s on the back, I can’t reach it.”
“Ehhh, here? Now?”
“Onegai! It’s really hot.” Tegoshi didn’t wait for Yamapi’s argue anymore. He turned his body and faced his back to Yamapi. He was that self-centered after all. Yamapi sighed, if any girls requested for it, he would gladly do it, but since it’s Tegoshi, and he’s a boy, Yamapi sensed everything was wrong, so wrong!
Yamapi was still dumbstruck, he never felt this nervous to open zipper of any dresses before. His hand slowly reached Tegoshi’s back. It was shaking continuously as it finally held of the zipper, he quickly opened it. He could see a hint of Tegoshi’s bra behind the opened dress. The younger boy released a sigh of relief, “Yappari, being a boy is easier.”
He turned his body facing Yamapi then thanking him with his cutest smile ever. Yamapi couldn’t hold back his desire anymore. He grabbed Tegoshi’s small body closer and kissed him passionately. The latter was surprised at first, but he returned the kiss, shyly at first but slowly enjoying the kiss, the real kiss. It tasted sweet like strawberries. Tegoshi made a little sound as Yamapi deepened the kiss by sliding his tongue inside Tegoshi’s mouth. Wet sensual kiss.
They were making out in the couch for few minutes before Tegoshi broke the kiss, gasping for air. He was panting heavily. He grabbed his beer again and sipped it to calm his nervousness. Yamapi was nervous as well. He didn’t know why he acted so wild toward Tegoshi, his own fellow member. He thought it must be the effect of alcohol that he consumed. Yeah, he was still in denial.
“Tegoshi…”
“Yes?”
“Gomen … the kiss … it was wrong.”
Tegoshi stunned at his words, he didn’t expect it. How could it be wrong? It felt so real and right. Soft tears began to form in his eyes.
“Tegoshi, why are you crying? Please don’t cry!” panicked Yamapi, looking worriedly to the smaller one.
“You are so mean, Yamashita-kun!”
“M-Mean?”
“You are playing with my heart! Do you know I always love you? Why you never noticed? Am I nothing to you? Am I invisible? I was in heaven with the way you looked at me today. I know it’s not the real me that you saw. It’s because I’m wearing these girl things right? Do I must cross-dress all the time just to get your attention?”
He let out everything out loud. Yamapi was shocked to get shot with questions and also confession. He knew Tegoshi admired him from long time ago, he even mentioned it on national TV 5 years ago. But he never realized Tegoshi had feeling for him. How foolish he was.
“Tegoshi, I’m sorry okay? Call me a fool, but how am I supposed to know if you never told me?”
“Do you think it’s easy? I’m afraid you will think I’m such a gay freak and scared with my confession.”
“But you will never know if you never try, do you?” smirked Yamapi.
Tegoshi blinked. What it was supposed to mean?
Yamapi shifted his position closer to Tegoshi, he slowly removed the wig from Tegoshi’s head. Pretty girl Tegoshi was gone. His hair and make-up were messy, his eyes were red and still teary, but Yamapi thought he was still as beautiful as ever.
“You are always beautiful in you own way, Tegoshi. And that’s what I like about you.”
And before Tegoshi could say anything, Yamapi silenced him with kiss once again. This time it was pure and lovingly kisses. Still kissing him deeply, Yamapi carried Tegoshi to his bedroom, carefully as if he was carrying Chinese porcelain. “Elizabeth’s Town” playing on TV was forgotten. Yamapi finally realized his feeling for Tegoshi. Tomorrow morning everything would be different, they would face the world together, as a new couple.
*owari*
by Dianne, June 2008
Extra A/N : Finally I wrote TegoPi, I’m totally obsessed this OTP lately. Sorry for the lame title, taken from Britney’s song “I’m not a girl, not yet a woman”. And oh, the pretty Tegoshi image that I used for the fanfic banner isn’t done by me (how I wish I have skill to do that!), got it from a friend. I just used it for reference on how I imagined Tegoshi would look like in “Josou Paradise”. If there’s any issue, I will take it down.
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